How do you define a friend? what role should a friend play in helping you with a mental health illness?
Are you like me and have high expectations of people because you act in a certain way and believe that you should be treated the way you treat others?
I ask because I am starting to wonder what exactly some of my “friends” bring to the table these days.
I like to think I am supportive, and can be called upon to pick up the pieces for a friend in need.
I seem to have lots of toxic friendships, people who seem to think letting me down is okay but worse of all is the people who seem to be able to dish out verbal lashings in the name of “caring”
Sorry but I call bullshit on this! and I am fucking sick and tired of being called stupid, among other things, because I want to try something else to get better.
Firstly if you did care like you proclaim you would already know I have self esteem issues and really do not take kindly to being called names
Secondly telling me I cant do something is akin to waving a red flag at a bull
and more importantly
if you are a friend you would fucking support me not wait for the time to say “I told you so”
I seem to have too many friends who only need me when it suits them but now I am thinking and seeing a lot more clearly and toxicity has no place in my life at the moment.
So put simply, the days of me chasing after friends and being the only person who actually makes any effort to communicate are in the past.
If you think something I am doing is stupid support me anyway because I can guarantee you that there are stupid things you have done during our friendship that I have been there and picked you up afterwards!
The sad things about this rant is that it is not aimed at a single person but quite a few
So my message is as follows
Support me or fuck off!
and now i wait for the people who assume this is aimed at them to go on the defensive… funny how guilt makes people react isn’t it……