I realise this post is going to cause a few people to worry and panic but please just support me and not lecture me….
I was in bed for 4 hours before I actually managed to sleep last night, my head was full of ifs, buts and maybes about my current situation and I had a damn good thinking session and have come to a big decision. No idea how it will turn out but I need to try something.
I have decided that I am no longer going to take my antidepressants (pause for dramatic effect)
I can’t get any lower or feel any worse than I do at the moment and this is WITH the meds..
So what if
the meds are making my anxiety worse?
the meds are making my stomach worse?
the meds are making me reliant on them?
by increasing the dosages it just makes me feel more addicted to them and I have an addictive personality as it is
I feel like giving them up may make me have to fight some more as I feel like a quitter lately because I have let the depression overtake me, safe in the knowledge that the meds would do the job..
I have to try this at least and see where I am in a few weeks time because something has to give, and I dont want it to be me!