This is me in all my (AHEM) glory. Stripped down for the world to see and not bothered one little bit about it…… Or am I?
What do you see or think when you look at my pictures? I wonder if you see the same as me probably not I see things about myself very different from how the world thinks I do, or at least used to assume I did.
So this is my most personal blog to date about myself and what I dislike about me. It’s a long list not designed to earn me sympathy, praise for my honesty or an army of female followers as the new unlikeliest sex symbol of this decade!
Please note there are 2 rare things happening here the first is me having a photo done as I don’t usually especially photos of just me! Number 2 is the fact I am wearing my glasses in the photos as I hate wearing them!
Also kindly note the fact that no air brushing took place in these pictures! software can make minor changes not perform miracles. This body is all mine baby and the boxer shorts too! No socks were used and no camera lenses were damaged in the taking of these pictures.
Scroll down to look at my body beautiful and then see the lists of physical things I hate……..
By the way just looking at the pictures would you say to yourself “he has depression” I doubt you would because just by looking at someones physical appearance you wouldn’t be able to tell!
So my list is as follows
Glasses – I have worn them since I was about 8 and they are the bane of my life! My eyesight is so bad I have to get my lenses thined drastically to avoid me burning ants on the ground if the sun catches my glasses at the right angle. I used to wear contacts in my vainer days in fact I wouldn’t go out on “the pull” without them. One time I was approached by a young lady in a club who wanted to go on a date with me, what she failed to realise was the week before I was the guy in the glasses who tried talking to her and got laughed at! Always good for a man with self esteem issues!
Smile – I hate my smile look at my face I have a sad face some people are naturally smiley, Sheryl is for example and her face always seems to be happy, me I look like a miserable fucker even if I am not!
Chins – yes I used plural there! For the life of me i cant get rid of them! Hence the stubbly look to try and cover them. I also subconsciously think having facial hair is my way of hiding but thats another story
Stomach – yes I am fat, yes I know it, yes I try to lose weight and no I am not happy with it!
Body Hair – no i am not related to chewbacca I hate it but have been known to wear a summer coat and a winter one!
Knees – Particularly the left one which is, for want of a better word, fucked! Two operations and still not better, still causes pain almost daily and does not help me when I want to exercise as it cannot take it!
As a list of things I hate about myself go its not too bad is it? well maybe not to you but these things have shaped my life and not for the right reasons.
So what do my physical issue have to with depression? well funny you should ask……. I believe my knee problems are a massive reason for my depression
Ever heard of Physical depression? or did you think depression was emotionally related only?
The following information comes from http://www.webmd.boots.com/depression/physical-symptoms
Depression: Recognising the physical symptoms
In fact, many people with depression feel pain or other physical symptoms. These include:
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- Headaches. These are fairly common in people with depression. If you already had migraine headaches, they may become worse if you’re depressed.
- Back pain. If you already suffer with back pain, it may get worse if you become depressed.
- Muscle aches and joint pain. Depression can make any kind of chronic pain worse.
- Chest pain. Obviously, it’s very important to get chest pain checked out by an expert right away. It can be a sign of serious heart problems. But chest pain is also associated with depression.
- Digestive problems. You might feel queasy or nauseous. You might havediarrhoea or become chronicallyconstipated.
- Exhaustion and fatigue. No matter how much you sleep, you may still feel tired or worn out. Getting out of the bed in the morning may seem very hard, even impossible.
- Sleeping problems. Many people with depression can’t sleep well anymore. They wake up too early or can’t fall asleep when they go to bed. Others sleep much more than normal.
- Change in appetite or weight. Some people with depression lose their appetite and lose weight. Others find they crave certain foods – like carbohydrates – and put on weight.
- Dizziness or lightheadedness.
Many depressed people never get help, because they don’t know that their physical symptoms might be caused by depression. A lot of doctors miss the symptoms, too.
These physical symptoms aren’t “all in your head”. Depression can cause real changes in your body. For instance, it can slow down your digestion, which can result in stomach problems.
Depression seems to be related to an imbalance of certain chemicals in your brain. Some of these same chemicals play an important role in how you feel pain. So many experts think that depression can make you feel pain differently than other people.
Treating physical symptoms
In some cases, treating your depression – with therapy or medicine or both – will resolve your physical symptoms.
But make sure you tell your health care provider about any physical symptoms. Don’t assume they will go away on their own. They may need additional treatment. For instance, your doctor may suggest an antianxiety medicine if you have insomnia. Those drugs help you relax and may allow you to sleep better.
Since pain and depression go together, sometimes easing your pain may help with your depression. Some antidepressants may help with chronic pain, too.
Other treatments can also help with painful symptoms. Certain types of focused therapy – like cognitive behavioural – can teach you ways to cope better with the pain.
Who knew about physical depression? I sure as hell didn’t until recently but makes sense to me now! The way we look at ourselves physically can play a part in depression as well as the way we feel physically. Funny thing is that recently when I saw my doctor he asked how I felt and I told him “I feel better emotionally than I do physically” strange how things are so full circle they lead back to everything.
And so there you have the physical side of Garry and yet…
I have the most amazing wife who doesn’t care about how I see myself and loves me for me they say love is blind! Despite the sad looking face I have when I look at my wife and kids believe me I am smiling even if you cannot see it!
I will do a emotional assessment of myself one day soon but that will involve going deeper than I am possibly ready for!
I hope you enjoyed this I will not be charging for the pictures however I will not be amused if I find myself plastered around billboards advertising Armani Underwear without receiving payment