Moose and the Shrink

Today after 4 days of trying last week I finally managed to get through to the mental health team at Goodmayes (the specialist mental health hospital in my area) and spoke to someone.

This is a big step for me because I am worried about what they will say or diagnose.

I have an appointment, or initial screening, to use their vernacular*

Hopefully though they will tell me if I am bipolar or not as my Dr thinks I may be, and so do I having researched it.

My stomach was in knots talking to them over the phone, I don’t understand where this anxiety when talking to people in authority comes from. If I speak to anyone who works for government agencies or health positions I have such an overwhelming sense of fear in my stomach! It baffles me as I never used to have this problem! It has only been in the last 5 or 6 months this anxiety has developed.

Could it be that it was always there and I just did not recognise the signs?

My appointment is on 4th October so not too long to worry about any implications and I am working hard at trying to combat the fear of leaving home to attend these meetings.

Still on the positive side I made the call and that’s a good thing!

* I have always wanted to use the word vernacular in a sentence 😀

13 comments on “Moose and the Shrink

  1. Well done for making the call, it’s a really good step. And don’t worry about the appointment, they are there to help you, and if you do have bipolar then it’s best to get it diagnosed! Good luck x

  2. I found it a relief to be diagnosed as bipolar, it took some of the confusion and fear away. As you know from my experience, it does not ‘cure’ it, but it seems people dealing with me ask more pertinant questions. ( I was hoping to use dichotemy and juxtaposition in this reply, actually in anything, no luck yet, haha;-)

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