Ever heard the term “smiling depression”
Truth is a lot of people with depression suffer from what is uncommonly known as “smiling depression” sometimes called Masked Depression as well.
below is taken from urbandictionary.com
a term not largely known among people.
it is commonly described when you are so depressed inside yet you hide these aching emotions and appear to be happy and chipper to others. many people may confuse smiling depression with other things or may just classify it as being depressed but in fact it varies largely from being depressed.in addition to being depressed: feeling numb inside, having a constant feeling of worthlessness, and not knowing what to do in life, when you are dealing with smiling depression people become even more confused from the constant role play of being happy to others. people with smiling depression want to get better but do not know what to do to console others, and most likely the disease of smiling depression must go away naturally because no one will help out the individual. seeing that no one knows of the persons true depressing thoughts.
Is this more a case of having to hide the true nature of the illness from others due to the stigma that follows?
I would certainly imagine most people with “smiling depression” are those who work and have not told anyone about their illness for fear of becoming ostracised and in some cases eventually being forced out of their jobs. Crazy as that sounds it is a lot more common than people think. Lots of people HAVE to hide their depression at work because employers will find reasons to force them out, Google it if you don’t believe me!
Other than walking around with a smile plastered on your face pretending everything is okay when it’s not how about when you are smiling because at this moment in time you actually feel happy?
Do you ever feel when you are in in the middle of a happy cycle that you are a fraud?
That you shouldn’t be allowed to experience some up days because people will suddenly assume that your depression has vanished?
It is something I have seen various times on twitter, where people feel guilty for having a good day.
Why is that?
Is it to do with the stereotypes that all people with depression want to do is feel sorry for ourselves and walk around with a huge black cloud, crying our eyes out and looking for the best way to end it all?
Or is it just part of the illness reminding you that it is still there?
Since Monday morning I have been having an awesome week, no anxiety, no negative feelings and yet I suddenly feel like I should be feeling guilty for having a good cycle.
Now don’t get me wrong I DON’T feel guilty, quite the opposite but it is something I have seen others post in the past.
It interests me to understand why we feel bad for feeling good!
anyone have any ideas behind it?
anyone experienced the same sort of emotions?