Remember when I had lots to say and was inspired to write daily?
Remember when I was an avid reader and commented regularly on blogs?
Remember when all I could talk about was how shit things were and how down I was feeling?
Remember when I was happily married and had my kids around me?
Well things change and so do people….
I have changed, back into the man I used to be, the fun loving guy who wants to be out flirting, chatting and drinking, socialising with friends and/or making new friends.
I can look back at the past few months and feel amazed that I have made it though, despite the odd blip.
Yes I still get spells of feeling down, I’m in recovery from depression and it is something that will always try and come back if I allow it to, but I have some very very good friends and a great support network of people who just wont allow me to wallow.
I am focusing on the people in my life as they are now, not on how I remember them because changes are happening to them that I do not like, in some cases. This works is my favour as it is now easier to let them sail off into the sunset.
I’m moving on, letting go and using my energy on people who want to be in my life rather than wondering why certain people behave the way they do. I have spent too much of my time bemoaning a lack of friends and support etc because it was not coming from areas where I expected it to. Not anymore my friends.
People change for better or for worse, as for this person the change in me has been a positive one, I cant wait for the next chapter in my story to begin….
to those who have supported me I am sorry I didn’t focus enough on you instead of focusing on others. Believe me when you need me just say the word and I will be there.
For the others…too late moosey is gone…..
I feel good. I feel positive. Forget remembering the past time to focus on the here and now!