No Job For Garry

In the past 10 days or so I have been actively looking for a job via the internet, walking round the area and other means and after 200 job applications so far I am yet to hear from a single company!

I have tried pretty much every industry don’t care what the job is as long as it allows me to support my family.

What happened to the days when you could walk into a company and charm the manager into giving you a chance?

The internet is a great thing but boy does it make job hunting hard with hundreds of people going for one job!

how can you resist this face?

how can you resist this face?


I have worked in retail, sales and been a teaching assistant in a school, as well as a provident agent but the less said about that the better!

I make a great cup of tea and can talk the hind legs of a donkey if it means a potential sale or simply networking opportunities. Not to mention how much my great sense of humour can liven up the office and Christmas parties without the moose dad dancing is something no company should be missing out on!

So my friends, I need a job! preferably close to Woodford so I can still be home for Brandon after school – 10am to 3pm would be perfect but I am prepared to drag my ass out the flat for a full time job as well!

I don’t care what it is as long as it pays more than benefits and allows me to pay the bills, feed and buy clothes for the kids and still have something left over to paint the town red now and again!

If any TV executives are out there I would make a great presenter! or can even try my hand at acting for the right role šŸ˜€

Come on folks help find the moose a job or at the very least an interview where I can do the rest……

ā€˜positive about disabled peopleā€™

After being forced into attending another work related activity group by Seetec I sat in a room with 1 other person, yes 2 of us doing training!, and was given an hours workshop on my rights as a “disabled” person for getting back into work.

We were told about what rights with have under legislation against discrimination and I was surprised to learn about anĀ initiativeĀ calledĀ ā€˜positive about disabled peopleā€™ – or “double tick” as it is sometimes known.

This initiative is used by companies to guarantee disabled people at least an interview ” ifĀ you meet the basic conditions for the job.”

The logo is below


Disabled people come under 3Ā categories

  1. physical
  2. mental health
  3. learning

If companies have this logo on their recruitment adverts they should at least give you an interview. There are 5 commitmentsĀ thatĀ organisations are required to adhere to:

  • to interview all disabled applicants who meet the minimum criteria for a job vacancy and to consider them on their abilities
  • to discuss with disabled employees, at any time but at least once a year, what both parties can do to make sure disabled employees can develop and use their abilities
  • to make every effort when employees become disabled to make sure they stay in employment
  • to take action to ensure that all employees develop the appropriate level of disability awareness needed to make these commitments work
  • to review these commitments each year and assess what has been achieved, plan ways to improve on them and let employees and Jobcentre Plus know about progress and future plans

But here are my concerns on this scheme..

How many of these firms who guarantee you an interview actually employ people with disabilities or is it simply a case of paying lip service for a scheme which makes them look better in the eyes of the less cynical like me. It is all well and good promoting that you are “positive” about disabled people but I would like to think they are actually making Ā job offers as well.

And then I was shocked to learn that companies who wish to use the logo are assessed and awarded this by none other than the biggest discriminator against the disabled – The Job Centre!

Nonetheless I still think the idea behind the scheme is great assuming that it is closely monitored and actually gives people an opportunity but having the Job Centre behind this is akin to having MacDonalds sponsoring a PETA protest in my eyes!

Having scoured the internet I have managed to find a list of companies onĀ who sent a freedom of information request to the DWP – now surely this list should be moreĀ accessible?

Disability symbol national list

I would be interested to know if anyone else is aware of this scheme and if you have been interviewed, or not, by an organisation on this list…

Still on the plus side I actually learned something this week at something from the work program, although it was the training company Maze8 who gave this information and not Seetec!

“Could Do Better” Story of my Life

Three words that have followed me from childhood into adulthood!

Every year my school report contained the same thing from most of my teachers “Could do better” and if I was to look back on my 34 years the same words would apply.

I seem to be a shining example of a wasted life with very little to show for the talent(s) and ability that I possess.

I am actually more intelligent that I act, and yet I can look back at almost every aspect of my life with pangs of regret over how little I have actually managed to accomplish. Whether through my fault or others making the choices for me there is nothing for me to look back at and think “wow I achieved everything I set out to do!” be it career wise or personally.

I have had more jobs than I care to remember since leaving school in 1995, working in Retail, sales, pubs and clubs, a teaching assistant and even being a doorstep collector for a loan company (issuing loans and chasing repayments) and yet at this point in my life I still have NO IDEA what I want to do with my life.

At 20 I was footwear manager in what was the biggest sports shop in Europe! now I can’t even get employment in shops as there are so many people applying for each job. I applied for aĀ volunteeringĀ position at Mind and didn’t get as much as an interview. I feel like at 34 I am unemployable! The rejection side of job hunting is scary especially for someone like me with self esteem issues to begin with! It is almost 3 years since I had a job and whilst my depression is severe enough to currently keep me signed off I then have to deal with being tarred as a “benefits scrounger”. The time will soon come when I need to start looking for work again, even if currently the idea of being at work scares the hell out of me, not just the job itself but the drama of the commute which will be hell for me with my toilet issues, especially in the mornings!

The talent is there though it is more a question of using it proactively and productively! Besides finding it in the first place because there really is more to me than sitting on my fat arse!

Wasted Talent should be my motto! What can I do though? I am not a writer that much I have been made aware off, chances of me writing a novel pass with each day that I don’t open up the “Second Chances” file and work on it! 6 months since I even looked at the story so far tells me that it is not my niche!

So where now? answers on a postcard please because I need some inspiration to make the step from scrounger to bread winner before we sink into the financial abyss.

As my idol Mr De Niro said in the film A Bronx Tale “The saddest thing in life is wasted talent!”


“Sonny and my father always said that when I get older I would understand. Well, I finally did. I learned something from these two men. I learned to give love and get love unconditionally. You just have to accept people for what they are, and I learned the greatest gift of all. The saddest thing in life is wasted talent, and the choices that you make will shape your life forever.”

I guess time will tell whether I can A) find my talent and B) make the most of it

For now though the trawling through jobs I have no hope of getting will soon be starting and hopefully I can find something that gives me a chance or at the very least not let the constant stream of rejection send me into a spiral!